I need you to love me

HAHAHAHA. =)

Nope, i did not forget to take my pills today. =.= I'm just excited la! CAMP IS TOMORROW. Can't believe it's finally here. After months and months of planning..... I don't want it to come so soon though. I mean, give me another week or two to really let it sink in!! Planning was sooo fun. All the running around, getting things done, etc was nice. Really. I LIKE meetings with those people. It is hard to control them, to get them to be SERIOUS. But still. =))))

Anyway. More about camp AFTER camp..
Details of CAMPCAMPCAMP!
Date: 27th & 28th June 2009 [I KNOW. So short right.. =/]
Venue: Harvest Haven, Gopeng. [Capernwray]
Theme: United We Stand.
[Fiona suggested the theme to be 'Running after You' and the groups to be named after brands of SHOES.. =.="]

Well well well. I don't think i can concentrate in class tomorrow la. Hahaha. Good thing there's not much tomorrow ehh.. I have to admit, i'm a little nervous. Hope everything goes alright. I'm not going to be bothered with what YOU PEOPLE think la. I'm doing the best i can, thank you very much. Lol. Out of topic.. Never mind.

So sorry guys. Couldn't go for basketball today. =( Followed phon la.. And and and, i reached home after 7pm, you know. Hahaha. Maybe next time we'll really have dinner at mabel's?? =D A sleepover as well, perhaps? ahaha.

Okay everyone. Go get ready for camp.. =)
Have a good weekend!

ISH much

I am at home. At 11.24am. On a Thursday.
What does that tell you? =/

Thanks for all the care and concern, guys!
I'm alright.. i think. haha.
Yesterday was miserable. And funny.
Tomorrow will be better. =)

Goodbye.

SHE LIVES!!

Darn piano soon. Darn darn darn. Anyway, just wanna clear a few things up. *clears throat* I am not going to die. =.= My scoliosis is not THAT serious. I mean, yeah there are some people who died cos of it. But i'm not one of them. Nope i'm not in pain either. Was never in pain, thank God. No discomfort, nothing. Just very very concerned parents. =P Yeah, that's how we found out i had it. My parents saw something not right about my back and took me for many check-ups.

WELL. There're a few types of scoliosis. There's the C-curve, meaning the one curved one. And also the S-curve, meaning two curves. Mine's the S-curve. If you're wondering why don't i correct the lower spine,.. An operation is not cheap okay. Plus, i would be like a robot if i do. By robot, i mean, super-duper stiff and straight all the time. AND AND AND I don't wanna have to go through the post-op period EVER again. It. Was. Horrible.

Oooo! I have eight screws on[is the word 'on'? Or is it something else??]my spine. Titanium, mind you. People usually ask if they would rust or not. HAHA. Nolar. It can last for a 100 years. And no. The metal detector at the airport won't go off if i go through it.. Lol. It's a little hard to explain how everything[the S-curve, the screws, etc etc]looks la. Hmm. If i ever get my xrays back, i'll show. The before and after is so WHOAA. =) My scar is still here, though. It's not as obvious as last time. It's a long long loooong scar. 12 inches, if i'm not mistaken.

Ah. It's so weird to be blogging about this. I doubt anyone actually knows all the details about it and the operation and everything. Hardly talk about it unless someone asks. Haha. It was so long ago la.. or at least it feels like it was.

Alright. I'm leaving. Feel free to ask anything about IT.

Sleeeeping beast.

Aiyo. Why is everyone blogging about the concert?? =.= Never mind. And yes, it's true. Prefects have to buy the tickets at full price. No discount whatsoever. We duty one night and enjoy the concert the other night. Yup. I'm planning to get mine from pn kaliammal. Will see how. I've finished selling all my tickets ad by the way. Whee.

ANYWAY, how sickening can this get? Oh man. She gave me such a lame excuse!! At least think of something better la. And be more sincere or TRY to, will you? Geez. Blah. Whatever. I'll just forget about it.

Mehh how to tell? =/ She's sure to ask... So, now what? Dunno la. I pray that God will give me the strength and courage to go through all this.. *prayshard* Ku runsing fikirkannya.

Byebye.

Last LAST friday =D

Hahaha this post is specially dedicated to Michelle Lee.

So, last friday, as in the first friday of the holidays, we went out. Whee. Lol. First, went to the hospital.. had a check-up. Did a few x-rays. IT'S BEEN FOUR YEARS PEOPLE! Heh yeah. Anyway, i guess i would never be fully recovered. There's still a slight curve on my lower spine. =/ Only about 10 degrees la. So, not dangerous. But pray it doesn't get worse!=) My operated part was about 36 or 37 degrees. Yup. Teruk, i know. If you don't understand, go google 'scoliosis'. That's the 'disease' i have. HAHA. More about it some other time la.

Weell. The hospital was crowded as usual. Somemore had to do xray, so waited extra long. I kept getting texts from sim asking to HURRY. Hahaha. Poor her.. Home, then had lunch. Poof! Suddenly i'm in jusco.. Haha. We sat around for a few secs and sim asked to teman her to toilet. Apparently she didn't dare move before i arrived. HAHAHA. Walked around, then it's TIME. FOR... HANNAH MONTANA!! Don't ask why i watched it. It was.. hannah montana la. What can i say? The cinema was so cold la. Some people were getting warm near us.. 0.0 And the two people behind were so annoying la. "EH! Taylorswift! Taylorswift!!!... she's gonna sing 'Love story'." She didn't sing 'love story' AHAHAHA.

After movie. Started camwhoring. =.=" I know i know. But yeah, i had FUN. A LOT of fun. =DD This is my fourth year knowing you guys ad le. WOOT! Let's keep going out til... we can't go out. Hahaha. Honestly, it was really nice getting together. We should do it again. This time, ALL GIRLS aite?? Haha.

All others don't matter, do they?

TO SHANNON yang sungguh blur.. The WHOLE list of homework is in 'our' blog.. go check it out dude. Clickety click HERE.

ANYWAY. TODAY IS A GOOD DAY. hahaha. Even though i didn't get much done.. Or rather not as much as i wanted la. But it was still a good day. =D Yup, i didn't go for youth. And not because i wanted to skip okay. Was about to call someone to pick me up, BUT my uncle came. So, had to layan them.. When they left, it was almost 5. So yeah.

Just came back from DINNER. Whee. Haha. Parents' cell thingy. I HAD FUN. =P We ate. We talked. We talked somemore. We laughed. We played UNO. We watched PLAYHOUSE DISNEY. Hahaha. =DDD Darn. I really enjoyed myself la. We were at mrs ling's house.
Goodfood+goodcompany=GREATNIGHT. =)

Currently listening to: You and me - lifehouse
Currently feeling: IFEELGOOOD! =)

Lovely.. .=D

Whoaa. =) Hahahaha. *jean get over it..*

Okay. Okay.. I'm over it.. hahaha. RIGHT.
Anyway. I don't think i'll be going for youth later. I'm stuck at home.. Parents left me.. hahah. since driver tak de. Ku tak dapat keluarrr. Lol. And and and we seriously need to bond more. *nods*

THIS IS SUCH A HAPPENING YEAR WEH. A little too happening la at times. But still! *grins* I'm not saying anything until everything's confirmed. Lalalala... Don't wanna potong any stim. Haha.

School's starting on monday. Feeling a little nervous. For certain reasons. =P Never mind. Anyway. Still have homework waiting to be done. So, GOOOODBYE! i'll be back. =D

Haha went to eugene's blog. Saw the song, downloaded it. =)
Forever - Hillsong... =P
Tomorrow's gonna be another good day!!
Let's get everyone PUMPED UP about it!!
I'M officially EXCITED.
=D

And Oh
How wide You open up Your arms
When I need Your love
How far You would come
If ever I was lost
You said it all
You feel for me
This undying love
That You show through the Cross..

It's okay. Really. I'm fine.
Sure, it hurts.
But it's alright.
The hurt will heal in time..
=)

haha three posts in one day..

HOW COULD I FORGET?!!

OH OH OH! Last week, I GOT a skirt=P

and A NEW CAMERA!!!!!

Only time will tell

God cares definitely:)
Yes He does. He really does. Who else can stand listening to millions of complaints every single day? Who else would even BOTHER? Let's be honest, we're horrible people. Don't get me wrong. God created wonderful beings, with good intentions. But somehow, we tend to go the other way. We tend to do the wrong thing. Most of the time it's accidental, sometimes it's done consciously. But He still cares. Awesome eh? =)

These past few months have been hard. They really have. I'm not complaining. I learnt a very valuable lesson. Life gets better. Everything happens for a reason. LIFE GETS BETTER. Trust me, it does. Nothing has gone my way. Nothing turned out the way i wanted. See? So many 'I', 'ME','MY'.. But really, everything was going downhill. Man, was i discouraged! Time and time again, failure hit me HARD in the face. [Looking back, i think 'PFFT WHATEVER..']Of course, life still isn't perfect.. Failure is still floating around, waiting to slap me somemore.

Many times i wonder, why? Why me? Why does God allow it all to happen? Does He wanna see me suffer? Giving up was number1 on my things-i-wanna-do list. [running away was number2 and getting a new life was number3 =P] But of course, i didn't. I wouldn't be here if i did, right? Wanna know what kept me going? Hope. Hope for a better tomorrow. Faith. Knowing that He has a plan for me. That all this is part of His plan. God has brought me through many storms in my life. This time is no different. He'll be with me through whatever.

We KNOW that He cares. We KNOW that He loves us. We KNOW that He's here. Just knowing is not good enough. Let me tell you something. HE DOES CARE. HE DOES HE DOES HE DOES. Believe it.

When life gets better, i'll let y'all know. =) I'm still waiting..

Nahhh

Hmm actually wanted to blog about my visit to the hospital after a superbly long time. But, it'll be a very long post. Dum di dumm. Oh oh oh.. my email inbox is full with camp stuff. HAHA. Man i'm sad. Saw a moth in a toilet on sunday.. One of those R&R places. Reminds me of harmina. Haha. We saw one outside the 5science classes. We were out collecting $$ [hmm haven't finished collecting le..]That girl, supposedly smart, suggested going down the stairs[the one near the toilet]and up the 5S1 stairs just to avoid the moth. =.=" Of course we didn't la. Haha. Waste of energy i tell you..

Whee i like my notebook. [hahaha so random]

You know what, i've made lots of wrong decisions in my life, but this time, i've made the right one. =)

Haha. Just some random shots i found..
TOP: With THEBROTHER.
BOTTOM: ME, Rachel, Allyson.
=)