Sneeze cough laugh whack

I am going to pack my bag for monday before i forget. Must remember to pass up ADDMATH BM-TATABAHASA AND ENG-ESSAY! That's one of the reasons i hate being absent from school. Honestly. If i could, i'll try to NOT be absent. But ah. Can't be helped right. =/

Things i missed:
1. MERENTAS DESAAA merentas sekolah more like it.. =.=
2. CAVELL CHEERR! Ohmygosh we've been doing it since the FIRST(or second?) practice. And now when it's the REAL day, i'm not there..
3. Passing up books. Haha. Okay i'm being a little lame. But YES. Now i have to pass it up myself and explain to the teachers why i'm passing up late. Bah.
4. FUN in the sun.. lol. or not..

I should have just gone to school. Haha and risk infecting the whole school. =D Cool. Then kita sama-sama masuk hospital! Misery loves company right? HAHAHA.

But then again. I HAVE to get well. Busy weekend ahead. Just ask the president of JLFC =) I cannot afford to miss this weekend too. That was what i thought about this morning. To miss one day of school, or to miss an entire weekend. But tuition tonight.. Should i go? Hmmm. We'll see.

I'm getting my voice back, thank goodness!! No more frog-ish voice! No more high squeaky voice! Still a bit off la. But can laaaa. Better than before.

Loads and loads and loads of thanks to JESSICALOH for helping me pass stuff today. Haha. THANK YOU. Actually planned to go to school today. But. Due to many factors, decided not to. Smart move, too. =) Okay. I should be resting now. Til next time.

Don't ever get sick. It is no fun. I killed many trees yesterday. =/ made so many 'wantans'.

Mockingbird

I've been out the entire day. Starting with school in the morning, then church til 6.30, then to uncle khengchat's. Reached home about 10pm. I didn't get a chance to come home the whole day. Changed in church. Had no time to rest. Or think.

I'm tired. Physically and mentally. I don't wish for more hours in a day. I wish for more energy in me. More 'battery life'. I want to be able to go on and on and on for days. Then this whole week would have been so relaxing. Unfortunately, i'm human like the rest of you.

I'm now easily irritated, not exactly in the laughing mood, impatient. Let me repeat myself, i am tired. Ran out of battery. And to think, what's left of this weekend is only sunday. If only you'll stop pretending, stop being so.. indifferent at times, stop being so arghhhhhh. I can't even think straight for goodness sake!

After an entire week, everything that happened is now settling down in my head. All at once. It's messing everything up, inside. Do you understand a word i'm saying? Never mind. When will it end?

This post was not supposed to happen.
i want you to leave me alone, yet i want you by my side..

ohmygoodness.

This is

SO WEIRD.

This is NOT for your entertainment.

 It's my life.

Supposed to be doing addmath with ping now. But ahahaha.

Goodnight.

Take me there

Sometimes a little kindness goes a long way. A few words of encouragement could turn someone's day around. Think about it. All we ever need is a LITTLE push, a LITTLE love, a LITTLE this a LITTLE that. huh.. the word 'little' is getting weird.... But really. That little bit of kindness she showed me almost made me tear up. Thank you =) i really needed that today.

Spent the whole, well almost, two periods of BM talking to meiping. Man. We've grown. We talked and talked. I have a feeling there's a lot more to be said. All the bottled up feelings. Things are so messed up these days. It's hard to believe that everything was ever so simple. People need to understand. People need that realisation, that wake up call.

Yes something's bothering me. Actually, a FEW 'somethings'. What can i do about it? We've been trying to look at stuff from your point of view. Trying to understand. Now it's time for you to look at it from OUR point of view. It's affecting me more than the others. Perhaps i'm sensitive.

Installation day is on monday. Should be happy or sad? It's our LAST installation. It also means that january is over and WELL how fast time flies. To be honest, i'm enjoying this year a little more than last. Maybe cos i finally KNOW that it's time to get serious. And so, i don't feel so useless. Maybe i've sorted things out with myself. Maybe i've grown. Who knows?

On a BRIGHTER note, we have school tomorrow!!! HAHA.

I don't blog often enough. Just a short one now =)

Basically. Life's been going up then down then up again and stays in between for a long time. God's been good though. It's finally our last year. Feels a little surreal at times. But then again.. there's this nagging feeling in me telling me to grow up. Yeah.

Anyways. Yeahhhh. Til next time.

"JEAN! Your belt SPARKLES like EDWARD CULLEN under the Sun!!"
it's moments like this that put a smile on my face.
LOL. xD

Lima. Satu. Sepuluh.

2010 is here. and i still haven't put up any updates. HAHA. Whatever.. it's gonna stay in my memories. That's good enough =) Holidays were good. Productive. Enjoyable. Memorable. Yup. Awesome.

School started yesterday. It's not as bad as what i expected.. Just read waikit's post on our youth blog and felt really encouraged. Now i'm convinced and absolutely positive that this would be an awesome year. Not gonna be bothered with much. Focusing more on studies. I'M GONNA BE A NERD, Y'ALL! Just enjoy my last school year. (please dont say a word about form6. just don't.. =.=) Really. I mean, it doesn't actually matter does it? Of course there are a few things that matters A LOT to me =)

Too much is bad right? So yeah. I'm happy with how things are. God answers prayers. HE DOES!! My goodness, He is awesomely awesome. New year's was really ... to me. Had a great time during new year's eve at daren's and all that. Was preetty busy the whole weekend actually. Haha. Worth it though. But then sunday came. School... But now, i'm just gonna surrender it all to God. Yes i am.

So, have an awesome year, everyone!

when it just wasn't enough...

=)