Hello :)

SPM is in a week. A. WEEK. 0.0 How time flies mannn.

I never realized how much i missed you. How much i miss them, the one in sydney, the one in singapore, the ones in ipoh. Everyone. I cannot wait til SPM's over. And i don't wanna go off so soon! Everyone else will still be here. AHH!!

I wanna be a scared direction-less form 1 again. On second thought, nahhh. :) I just wanna relive every single camp, every single camp PREP. All the time we spent in rena's, in church, staying up late in camp, working from 9 to 5. HAHA. And i'm talking about GBcamp, LTC and of course YOUTHCAMP. Imagine. It's all over.

There's so much i wanna do in that 3 weeks. Goodness.
I am not gonna think about it until IT is over.
By the way. The grandma is here :) She'll be staying until i-dont-know-when.

The richest and happiest looking beggars ever :)

CARJAK plus :) :)

Okay. SPM time.

Abandoned

Okay. Am abandoning FB until after SPM. Those people are fast in uploading pics man. Lol. It's flooding my inbox! Anyway. Gradnight was last night. Had a good time with everyone. Did the performance and we won :) Good job, people! The form4s did a good job too. Haha. The whole night was basically like a photo taking session.

Date : 1st Oct 2010

Venue : Impiana Casuarina (casuarina hotel la)

Time : 7.30 - 10.30 pm

Theme : Glamour, Glitter, Glee

i like like like this pic :) :) :)

WOOT WE GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL!

Haha that sounds so cool.

Next up, SPM. 

Raindrops are falling on my head

September :)
3moremonths! :D

Anyway. Last week. Watched HSM3 with two 21yearsoldpoeple. :D
"My goodness. It's like English Bollywood!"
"You mean like, HOLLYWOOD? Lol."
"There's more singing than acting."
"They dance and sing every 10 minutes."
"Wait for it .... HAH there they go, jumping up and down."
LOL. Why we watched it, i have no idea. Think it was my fault. HAHAHAHA. It was better the first time i watched it though. Hmmm.

DRUMLINE is still impressive no matter how many times i watch it :) It's a very old movie. The band formations are AH-MAY-ZEEENG. The percussion section is good too. Ah enough about movies.

Goodbye. Off to enjoy what's left of the hols.
OUR LAST HOLS BEFORE SPM.
The next one would be after :)

Princess in shorts

HEHE.
Was just msn-ing with the bro.
Lol he's just in the next room.
Funny.

KIMMYLIMMY.
Sorry. Phone ran out of battery :)

Are you being unreasonable or is it me?
HMMMMM.

Woots movietimeee :D

Backspace

I'm glad i didn't go.
It wasn't that bad, right? :(

Anyway. Holidays. Nice. :)
That, not so nice. :( grr.

School has been hmmm relaxing.
Lol. Everyone's acting as though SPM's over.
9 WEEKS.
Time to get serious, jean!
I'm going to enjoy myself first. haha.

RAYA.
Open houses.
Food fun :D
Hahaha she's taking us.
Oh kimmy, i'll text you the details when i get back yeah?

Hari Malaysia.
Why aren't we as patriotic as other people from other countries?
It's sad, you know. In a way.

AH. I wish they kept it to themselves.
no sleep tonight. 

I want candy

I want to hide.

Under a blanket.

In a hole.

In my closet.

ANYWHERE :(

I want to disappear.

Life is unfair.

Boo.

 

The Incredible Hug

This week better end soon.
I don't like.

Dinner with the family tonight.
I like how things are at home now.
I like being at home. Hmm.

Next week next week!
She forgot she was fasting =.=
Time, please fly :D

Lol still haven't watched toy story 3.
It's just sitting there. Waiting...
0.0

Exams aren't over.

Two months y'all.

:D

Happy merdeka malaysia!
Lol.

SEPTEMBER IS HERE :)
I like i like i likeee.
Now, i wish time would pass faster.
Ah SPM.

Went for dinner and movie with kimmy last night.
Grown ups was funny.

I dreamt of earthquake-ish quicksand. On the field.
I dreamt of camps. and new houses.
I dreamt of cars and people.
I dreamt of running away.
I dreamt of fighting bad people HAHA.

I dream weird dreams.

Show me the world

"Don't you feel bad? It's totally one-sided."

*shrugs* "That's how it has always been."

It's noisy outside.

It's noisy inside.

Noise noise noise.

Lol the word looks weird now.

Noise. Tortoise. Heh.

Happy birthday
 SLIMMYY!

While everyone else is studying their asses off, i am here.
Don't ask. Just don't. :)
Not like i have a choice.

We had a very early dinner.
I want supper laterr.

Watched my 8year old cousin FB last night.
He watched me watch tv later.
I was babysitting. Plus he's CHINESE ED. imagine!

500GB.

If dreams have meaning, what do mine mean?
And my heart ain't got no weird patterns.
I'm not thaaaat complicated.

There's still tomorrow.
sigh

I'm out.

it was a good day

xD

ihopekhershinseesthis:D

Goodbye comes after hello

We are so 1Malaysia :)

One week, one week, one week. :O

Heart pounding, sweaty palms, slap me.

If only you were real. :)

It's clean. ;D

The more i say no, the more you want to.

I need to buy ink refill. Hmm.

Never ending.

BARNEY IS GAY!

I'm waiting, I'm waiting

To hear You call my name

I'm waiting, I'm waiting

For You Lord

-Waiting-

Fireflight

"After saying all this, you just want to say that its big right?"

If it causes confusion it isn't good.

Huh. I'm confused.

You left too soon.

The saddest thing is that, it's forgotten once you step out.

Real life doesn't happen that way.

i've disappointed :(

Give me time.

The cold, hard floor

Last GB meeting tomorrow. Well, last before farewell anyway. Just when we get comfortable with what we do, everything ends. S-A-D. As much as i want to leave school, i don't want it to end. xP

IT IS JULY. JULY!! Man. Time flies:( But life goes on. I shall save the sadsadsad post for later.

And why does everyone think that we're having a MOTIVATIONAL talk for GB tomorrow? Haha whatla. Ps. Elijah will be cominggg. Those who were around for the combined CF easter last year (ours:D and ACS') should remember him. I'm sure it will be anything but boring. And no, i didn't invite him. Ms Choong did :)

BAM. So many movies to watch :( TOYS STORYYY with kim. ECLIPSE with ceazaan. Those are the must-watchs on my list. No i don't think the twilight series is interesting or whatever. It's just. :) Tradition. Haha. *thinks newmooooon and airasia :D* BOOOOOM. Darnyoutrials.

*exhales* now what? =/

i've done my part.

Don't stare. It creeps me out xP

And HAHAHAHAHAHAHA :D FUNNYYY.

Check out this vid!

Nothin' on Airplanes & Billionaire

CLICKCLICKCLICKCLICKCLICK :)

bye.

Okay. Now i'm pissed. *takes deep breath*

AH whatever. You're not even worth it.

SO. Was in penang yesterday and came back today. For tuition =.= Yeah. Had a good time eating and walking and eating somemore. haha. Went with the chongs. Oh man, now it's only the two of us. It used to be SIX. People grow old right. Lol. It was fun though.

I miss church. 

I don't know.

I just do.

*shrugs*

Nevermindddd..

and i shall end with a smile :)

It hurts knowing how much you don't care.

Bah.

One week of hols gone. Another week left. Darn it. =/ you have no idea how much i don't want to go back to school. I would LOVE to dig a hole and bury myself right now.

AH. Forget it. *pushes negative thoughts aside*

Goodnight. :)

Whoops. I really should post it up, shouldn't i?

hehe. tomorrow's a brand new day!

Goodnight, world!

;D

One two three FLY

Holiday. :) Yup its here. FINALLY! *throws confetti in air* I am gonna be a nerd. Lol i mean it this time. I think the teachers think we plan to stay home and study the entire holidays. Bah. *stares at list of homework*

Anyway. It's gonna be a good break. Yes it is. So far so good. PEOPLE! HIGH PRAISE '10!! 25th June at elim. GOGOGOGO! Open to non-CFers too. Will make announcement on the monday after hols. Haha.

He has so much faith in me. Much more than me in myself xP 

I want this break to go sloooooooowly. Enjoy each and every second of it. Even if i sit around doing nothing, i'm satisfied. SO. Rachel left for australia already :( I miss her. A proper farewell post for her tomorrow :)  

hahaha memories of form3 :o)

die.

darn it.

i am worried.

don't bother what about.

i just am.

=/

I'm not scared of you. I have Him.

Grr. I have this 'thing' where i have to get sick during exams. That night was like hell. Felt like scraping my eye out and and and it took away my entire night of sleep. It's a wonder i survived moral paper the next day =D Hmm i did mess up some definisis *frowns* I have NO idea what i wrote for the essay part. die I can just imagine what jeyanthy's gonna say. *frowns somemore* And when i wanted to go back early, everyone said i looked very healthy =.= Haha. Oh wells.

Slept the whole of yesterday. Woke up for lunch at 4pm and dinner and some relaxing tv time. It was exhaustion, they say. Aik. Haven't really studied today as well. Feeling much much better but the words still float =/ How how how.

God, give me strength to study. Help me. Give me good night sleep. No more dreams, please? Please? Please let this be the last time this happens. Help me study and not slack. At the same time, help me not push myself too hard. Amen..

Thanks for all your care and concern. =) Thank you mummy for helping me through that night.

Dreams can be so real at times. When i get scared, i call out to Him. It works.

And people, please take good care of yourselves! I don't want any of you going through what i went through. It. Was. Horrible. All the best for the rest of the exams! =)

iheart

And because it is the last day of april, i shall blog. Lol.

Whatever. Whatever. Whatever.
WHATEVER!
it has a nice ring to it, no? =)

Today is chemistry day =)))) Four periods of chemistry and another 5 doing chemistry which never seems to end. iwonderwhy =P And chem tuition later tonight. Hahaha. What a day.

You will never know where my little corner is. If i told you, it wouldn't be mine anymore, would it? I found out that i got my 'killer glare' from the grandfather i never knew.

NINETEEN.
It's coming. I am not ready.

And what's her problem. Dang.. =(

*croak*

History is repeating itself. Yes it is, kim. =.= Not a good thing. *pushes it out of mind*

I like knowing.
I like knowing what to expect.
I like knowing that i'm prepared.
I like knowing the time something starts and ends.
I like knowing the truth.
I like knowing what to do next.
I am weird.
I shall keep my weirdness to myself now.

Byebye.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA;D

*eexin,if you see this,dontkillme=)*

Genius is staring at me

Yes i should update more=) *sorry khershin*

Anyway. Was in kedah today. Mmhmm. All we did was eat. =.= And i miss church. Hvent been there for, what, a month? Gah. Have been busy doing God-knows-what. Honestly, i dont know how time can pass so fast!

It is going to be MAY soon. OHMYGOODNESS. Midyear! OHMYGOODNESS. Then, the NEXT semester starts. OHMYGOODNESS. And SPM trials. OHMYGOODNESS. Oh wait, before that, all the farewells will be here soon. OHMYGOODNESS. Then then then, SPM man! OHMYGOODNESS. And then it is GOODBYE MGS =) i mean >=( LOL. Yes, my school life is complicating. hahahaha.

I got lectured for not knowing what i wanna do after SPM. =/

No more school camps. How sad. We should enjoy singing the school song. Cos soon, it'll be BYEBYE school song.

Bah. Not again.

And my happyhappymood is gone.
thankyou

YELLOW

Print print print. Pack pack pack. Text text text.

I like pre-camp =) Practice today was LOL-fying. We got everything done. Juniors sekalian were high =.= and so was i! ;D missed tuition, missed the walk to guardian=( lol. BUT. It was so worth it!

Our last year! OHMYGOSHWHYMUSTTIMEFLYLAWEH. I want school to end yet i don't want it to end. HAHA. Right.

You won't read this. But, don't worry. Everything will work out in the end. Sorry i won't be around this weekend. =/ I WILL pray for you =) Everything's gonna be alright.

And YOU, all the best! One more day tomorrow!! I feel excited for you hahaha. Cannot wait to tell you the news la. It's no big deal, cos nothing is final. But still. =DDDD

Okay. Long weekend ahead. =) Back to printing then to bed.

Hide in delight

"You sound tired. Are you okay?"

Thank you for the concern. And i'm fine. Mid year's coming and i have to get serious! Gah. Need. To. Study. =/ And yes, i AM tired. Don't ask me why. Was very free today during english >=) nyeknyeknyek. I hope they read the pink paper and DO SOMETHING!

The weather is bad bad bad these days. I sweat after bathing =.= School has been okay. Y'know... I want the skeleton hand =( Anyone willing to buy me one? =)

Pesta ria's over. So is LTC. Next up, GBCAMP! *does a happy dance* I don't care what happens. We're gonna have an awesome time. Yes we will!! I want to go to KL on monday. Ahhh.

What do you see in her? Why? This is one thing i'll never understand about you. Do not leave me hanging. It's annoying. Really. Wanna say something? SAY IT. Goodness.

Oh man. I'm tired. Need to sleep. Goodnight world!

updated;D

Freshhhhh

We believe in this love.

Tomorrow's Good Friday. Easter's on sunday. Oh well. AT LEAST i get to attend saturday's. =)

Finish packing for LTC. After years and years of camps (ahahaha fine, this is only the fourth year, but hey, long time you know?) i still have that did-i-leave-anything-out feeling. Afraid of not bringing enough. I almost always bring extra of everything. =D Overthinking the trip. Most of the time, we don't even use half the things we bring. But then again, i feel darn experienced packing for camp. Knowing what to expect is comforting. =)

Anyway. This. Is. Our. Last. LTC. Our last camp together for the non-GBers. Sad huh? And i can still remember our first. Haha. *think flying fox!* Never mind. Let's make this the best. It will be.

Alright. Time's up. Goodnight everyone. Have an awesome day tomorrow!

what watt, sakkai? =)

But Again Come Kenapa

WELL i'm baaaaaack =D If you don't get what i mean, it's alright.

Last night was a good night. Due to many reasons. One which is WOOOTS TV!! HAHAHA. Lame. It's nice to know i am still as lame as ever. Honestly. Reading the oral that i wrote (does that make sense?) made me see my lame-ness =.= Never mind. I'm a happy girl =) most of the time.

Ya ku rasa bengang. Namun kebenganganku dapatlah kutepikan dan meninggikan kegembiraanku. LOL. I like today's BM. Kengaman = perpaduan. HAHAHAHAHA.

Whooops dinner time. =)

Hate that i love you

I miss youthcamp.
Haha oh-so-random, i know.
But yeahhh i miss those moments.
PRE-CAMP! Ohmyohmy. =)
Sitting along the corridor, drifting off to sleep as we talked, laughing my ass off, AH! words can't describe, really. And to think, things are all gonna change in a few months =(
School, i won't really miss. =P I don't know. Sure, we had some awesome times in school. I'll miss that like mad. Heck, i already miss it. But then again...

I have a good life. =)
And i have been using way too many smileys. Haha.

Don't ask me why. Everything's upside down. =/

No more nice and cosy feelings anymore.
None that's genuine anyway.
But it doesn't matter. =)
Right? Yeah.

Everything's alright,
i got JESUS with me
=)

Sudden silence

Left alone at home =(
Feeling sad that you're gone.
Another one month til you come back.

And YES i'm a big girl now.
And big girls don't cry! Lol.
Right.

Well.

Concert later! =)

Waterlilies in a mangrove swamp

I am, like, so overr you. =) *does hand thing in some bimbo voice*

OKAY. So, tomorrow's our last day of piawai. YAY! Right.. In a way, it's pretty sadddd. Never mind. My nose is still running. *sneezes* Huh. Wonder what's wrong. Anyway. Let's seeeee. Sports day last sat. Our LAST y'all!! LASTTTT. Goshh. After everything that happened that week, sports ended on a high note. =) Disappointing, of course. But then again, we laughed so hard, it's sad to see everything ending.

Oh man oh man oh man! So many reasons why i cannot wait til after 7pm tomorrow! Or rather, i can't wait for saturday. The holidays, AHHH! =D Haha sorry a little high-ish now. Nothing makes sense. But i'm over it. SO OVER LA. Please.

Til i feel normal again. =)

Hormonal drama queen

Okay. So, what's next? I already did what i could. I mean, i could do more but then it would be so inappropriate. But if i keep waiting, then how would i know things would happen? Well yeah, i kinda expected to be disappointed. Was preparing for disappointment. But still! i want things to happen =/ As strange as it may be, i was hoping for more. Of course, the rational part of me is shouting FORGET IT and MOVE ON. But if i'm 'true to myself' (oh gosh, so disney hahah) i cannot deny the fact. So, now what?! Okay i should stop.

I KNOWWWW. This is so stupid. =.= I know it's ridiculous but somehow i can't really help it. =( know what i mean? Don't think so. Bah.

See you in three weeks! =)

Blah school starts tomorrow.
AHH!!! =/

Meerkat mail

Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha *takes a breath* hahahahahahahahahahah.

Okay, done laughing. *grins*
I am sorry. It's just funny to imagine =D
Don't ask, seriously, don't.

ANYWAY. It's the fourth day of Chinese new year! Righht. Cny was preetty much the same as always. We sat around, ate a lot, talked yada yada. House was crowded. Especially on the second day. I was so afraid the house would explode.

I saw him today. After all these freaking years, i see you NOW?! At first i thought you didn't recognize me, but then =P I SAW!! Lol. Ah well. It's just a momentarily blast from the past. It's probably the last time. So, here's a proper goodbye since we didnt have one last time. HAH! Thanks for nothing. I can think of so many horrible things to say. Some nice ones too, but i should stop here. *moment of silence*

On a brighter note, I GOTTA FEELING that tomorrow's gonna be so AWESOME. And also friday and saturday AND HOPEFULLY, sunday too=) I still think the chinese new year hols are too short. I don't wanna go back to school just yet. =( i don't i don't i don't! If everyday's like last friday, i wouldn't mind. Hehe. We were super high. We're so productive man! Okaaay that didn't come out right. Haha.

The flipper and the flippee

I don't know whether i should feel happy or sad now. *confused*

I like lollipops. Just the sight of it makes me happy.
I like cake. It's fattening and eating it feels SOO good.
I like laughing. It's an awesome way to de-sress.
I like talking. It's a good way to CONNECT. =)
I like being busy. It keeps my mind occupied.
And i like ... =)

Goodnight, world!

Sneeze cough laugh whack

I am going to pack my bag for monday before i forget. Must remember to pass up ADDMATH BM-TATABAHASA AND ENG-ESSAY! That's one of the reasons i hate being absent from school. Honestly. If i could, i'll try to NOT be absent. But ah. Can't be helped right. =/

Things i missed:
1. MERENTAS DESAAA merentas sekolah more like it.. =.=
2. CAVELL CHEERR! Ohmygosh we've been doing it since the FIRST(or second?) practice. And now when it's the REAL day, i'm not there..
3. Passing up books. Haha. Okay i'm being a little lame. But YES. Now i have to pass it up myself and explain to the teachers why i'm passing up late. Bah.
4. FUN in the sun.. lol. or not..

I should have just gone to school. Haha and risk infecting the whole school. =D Cool. Then kita sama-sama masuk hospital! Misery loves company right? HAHAHA.

But then again. I HAVE to get well. Busy weekend ahead. Just ask the president of JLFC =) I cannot afford to miss this weekend too. That was what i thought about this morning. To miss one day of school, or to miss an entire weekend. But tuition tonight.. Should i go? Hmmm. We'll see.

I'm getting my voice back, thank goodness!! No more frog-ish voice! No more high squeaky voice! Still a bit off la. But can laaaa. Better than before.

Loads and loads and loads of thanks to JESSICALOH for helping me pass stuff today. Haha. THANK YOU. Actually planned to go to school today. But. Due to many factors, decided not to. Smart move, too. =) Okay. I should be resting now. Til next time.

Don't ever get sick. It is no fun. I killed many trees yesterday. =/ made so many 'wantans'.

Mockingbird

I've been out the entire day. Starting with school in the morning, then church til 6.30, then to uncle khengchat's. Reached home about 10pm. I didn't get a chance to come home the whole day. Changed in church. Had no time to rest. Or think.

I'm tired. Physically and mentally. I don't wish for more hours in a day. I wish for more energy in me. More 'battery life'. I want to be able to go on and on and on for days. Then this whole week would have been so relaxing. Unfortunately, i'm human like the rest of you.

I'm now easily irritated, not exactly in the laughing mood, impatient. Let me repeat myself, i am tired. Ran out of battery. And to think, what's left of this weekend is only sunday. If only you'll stop pretending, stop being so.. indifferent at times, stop being so arghhhhhh. I can't even think straight for goodness sake!

After an entire week, everything that happened is now settling down in my head. All at once. It's messing everything up, inside. Do you understand a word i'm saying? Never mind. When will it end?

This post was not supposed to happen.
i want you to leave me alone, yet i want you by my side..

ohmygoodness.

This is

SO WEIRD.

This is NOT for your entertainment.

 It's my life.

Supposed to be doing addmath with ping now. But ahahaha.

Goodnight.

Take me there

Sometimes a little kindness goes a long way. A few words of encouragement could turn someone's day around. Think about it. All we ever need is a LITTLE push, a LITTLE love, a LITTLE this a LITTLE that. huh.. the word 'little' is getting weird.... But really. That little bit of kindness she showed me almost made me tear up. Thank you =) i really needed that today.

Spent the whole, well almost, two periods of BM talking to meiping. Man. We've grown. We talked and talked. I have a feeling there's a lot more to be said. All the bottled up feelings. Things are so messed up these days. It's hard to believe that everything was ever so simple. People need to understand. People need that realisation, that wake up call.

Yes something's bothering me. Actually, a FEW 'somethings'. What can i do about it? We've been trying to look at stuff from your point of view. Trying to understand. Now it's time for you to look at it from OUR point of view. It's affecting me more than the others. Perhaps i'm sensitive.

Installation day is on monday. Should be happy or sad? It's our LAST installation. It also means that january is over and WELL how fast time flies. To be honest, i'm enjoying this year a little more than last. Maybe cos i finally KNOW that it's time to get serious. And so, i don't feel so useless. Maybe i've sorted things out with myself. Maybe i've grown. Who knows?

On a BRIGHTER note, we have school tomorrow!!! HAHA.

I don't blog often enough. Just a short one now =)

Basically. Life's been going up then down then up again and stays in between for a long time. God's been good though. It's finally our last year. Feels a little surreal at times. But then again.. there's this nagging feeling in me telling me to grow up. Yeah.

Anyways. Yeahhhh. Til next time.

"JEAN! Your belt SPARKLES like EDWARD CULLEN under the Sun!!"
it's moments like this that put a smile on my face.
LOL. xD

Lima. Satu. Sepuluh.

2010 is here. and i still haven't put up any updates. HAHA. Whatever.. it's gonna stay in my memories. That's good enough =) Holidays were good. Productive. Enjoyable. Memorable. Yup. Awesome.

School started yesterday. It's not as bad as what i expected.. Just read waikit's post on our youth blog and felt really encouraged. Now i'm convinced and absolutely positive that this would be an awesome year. Not gonna be bothered with much. Focusing more on studies. I'M GONNA BE A NERD, Y'ALL! Just enjoy my last school year. (please dont say a word about form6. just don't.. =.=) Really. I mean, it doesn't actually matter does it? Of course there are a few things that matters A LOT to me =)

Too much is bad right? So yeah. I'm happy with how things are. God answers prayers. HE DOES!! My goodness, He is awesomely awesome. New year's was really ... to me. Had a great time during new year's eve at daren's and all that. Was preetty busy the whole weekend actually. Haha. Worth it though. But then sunday came. School... But now, i'm just gonna surrender it all to God. Yes i am.

So, have an awesome year, everyone!

when it just wasn't enough...

=)