B-O-R-I-N-G

Bored to the maxx. Hmm. waiting for miss liang kai qi to send the pics to me. Tiba-tiba, SHE WENT OFFLINE. Haih. Never mind. I'll get it some other time. AHAHAHA. WE KNOW A SECRET OF THE FORM5S(we as in ceazaan,meiping and i)lol. I am too bored that's why i'm starting to crap. Well yeah. We DO know a secret. Feel so privileged. Haha. Oklar. It's not tha big a deal.

PHEW. Get to do kerja kayu tomorrow. I wonder what group A's gonna do. hmm. eheh. Pity them. (people, you know why rite?*grins*)

So. Today. Took many pics in school. Haha. It was fun la. Posing til my legs hurt like gila. And my notebook became a model. Lol. Yup. Took many pics of my 'artwork' woth kai's cam. Too bad she hasnt sent me any yet. =( For your info, my 'artwork's are nice. Very nice. Hehe. Oklar. So im a little perasan. IM BORED.

Aiyo. Im going to watch TV. Eventhough there's nothing on. It's better than staring at the monitor. Haha. Ciao.

Just another day

So, got more papers today. All sucky. Dont ask how sucky. Haha. I learnt one very umm valuable thing. Hehe. When you are sad, TALK. Your sadnesss will then just VANISH. It works for me. I was too busy talking that i forgot how i felt. Now, im back to my normal self. =)

Gosh. My 'daughter' very cekap la. Ok. Our moral paper. Had 5 definisi to write. The section's 10 marks. Yokemun, a real cekap fella, DIDN'T DO ANY OF THE DEFINISI. She just answered the questions. OMG! And she got an A. Haha. Not bad eh? While the rest of us memorised the definisi, she didnt. Cekap man. (i also got an A la.) So, the lesson here is MEMORISING DEFINISI IS USELESS. haha. It takes guts to do something like that. Haha.

Oh man. My throat. Again. This year, i've had dunno how many sore throats, lost my voice countless times. Getting used to it. Haha. Don't really mind sore throats. It'll pass. Hehe. Yeah, i don't do anything about it. Eat the stuff i ALWAYS eat. Like chocs and all. HAHA.

Something happened today. Man. SOMEONE makes me so.... umm confused at times!! She does so many things. Oh mannnn!! Haih. I think i shouldnt say much about THE THING here. Not really suitable for this blog. =P
What to do what to do. Ish ish.

Umm. This is for everyone who cares. I'm fine ok? Just. A little disappointed. Ok. VERY. Yeah, moody Jean came back for a while today. She's gone now. I hope she doesnt return tomorrow. But right now, at the rate things are going, i can't be too sure. So, yeah....im fine.(I hope you all are too) =)

Not exactly a piece of cake

Hmm. This exam really sucks. I'm sure there are many who agree with me.

So, today. Woke up at 6. As usual. Did the normal routine stuff. School. Blah blah. Not gonna talk much about school la. School is depressing talk.=P It's like the only MAJOR thing to me today. Haha. Well, getting results ain't exactly something i like. Yes. My results are terrible. Horrible in fact. But what can i do about it? I was angry. But what for? Sad? Wasting time and energy. So, the only thing left to do is. Nothing. Accept it and move on. You people might think,"HAH!Easy to say. Can you do it?" and "How lame." But know what? Whatever la.

Anyway, today a plumber came to my house. There's this leak somewhere. So yeah. It was noisy when i came back from choir. What a sight! The porch was sooo dirty. And i was tired. Haih! Pity my mum. She had to clear up. Hehe. At least now the leak's um. been dealt with. Haha. Next someone's coming to change my gate. Right now it's manual. Dad wants to get new one and auto. I terlepas said,"Why change to auto? That lazy meh?" My dad just laughed and answered me logically,"Easier for ALL of us. Safer as well." Let me explain. Safer. Why? No one would(cos they cant) steal our shoes. Grr. Yeah my sport shoes are gone. Sob. Its so cacat la. I mean i was planning to throw it away. Haha. But now, i only got my walking shoes. So. Dunnola. My bro's WALKING shoes were stolen as well. Sigh. Some people are desperate.

Aiya. Enough crap for today.

I MISS YOUU!!!

One more thing.. Haha. Forgot to put this in earlier. Just wanted to say. I MISSed YOU! So glad you're back! Wait, i think you were always like that. I just didn't realize it. Haha. Sorry for neglecting you earlier(even if it was just a little bit) We have to stick together right? We rock together! Gosh. I can't believe how much i miss you! Thanks for always being there...! Love ya always! Even if i do certain things that may LOOK like im putting you aside. Just know this. I'm not. Hope you feel the same. =)

Now i have to start thinking of what to get ALL you guys for christmas. Aihz. Another headache. Haha. I thought about christmas during SCG. Dunno why. So, HAIH. What to get???? Don't wanna be last minute like last year. Haha. *YES im aware christmas is like 2months away*

Klar. I don't only miss one person. I MISS ALL OF YOU!! You guys rock my life. Even if you DO change. Glad it's for the better.

Ok. Im done. *feelings out* hehe

Decisions. Feelings. AIYO!!

It's a sunday. Haha. Can't believe it. Feels weird. Well. Let's see. Today was just a regular sunday. Woke up at 9.30(hehe), was rushed by my bro who wanted to go for first service(which starts at 9.30 HAHA) I just took my time la. Hehe. My SCG started at 10 mar. Anyway, when we reached, my bro was 22minutes late for service and i was 8minutes early. Thank God we found a parking space right in front of church. In front of the basketball court. So didn't have to walk far. But i had to cross the road also la. SCG was in Jireh.
So, i went up lar. To where my class was. Went in, OOPS. haha. Prayer was still on. hehe. So found fong(yenfong) and talked to her while waiting for them to finish praying. Then, SCG started. It was like usual lar. Me n fong were the only girls but biasa ad la. The guys were being guys. (und la) Adrian challenged sam to NOT talk the entire lesson. Well, guess what? He succeeded. Haha. He used a lil 'sign language' Haha.
After SCG, we had about 20minutes before 2nd service started. Went to caltex. Man, we havent been there in sooo long. Ish. Whyla BP close. Have to walk further. Haih. Like i said, long time since we(adrian,sam,fong,me)went there together. Talked and crapped as usual la.
Service was actually fun. Haha. Fong,rach and i sat at the back. We used up 4 bulletins. =) Don't ask for what. When service ended, we laughed. Hehe.

I didn't go for the jam session. Oh well. Today's was the first. So don't think i missed much. Ah... jam.. im thinking of learning a new instrument. But still undecided. Either drums or guitar.(i already know keyboard cos duh i play piano) So, if i learn guitar, easy to practice cos i have a guitar at home. Drums, on the other hand, practice would be tough. Have to go to church. Church's about 5minutes frim my house. Haha. Have been thinking. Maybe, just maybe, i learn guitar first then later(much much MUCH later)take up drums...?Hmm. Someone give me a SIGN. haha.

Aunty marianna freaked me a little today. Haha. She came up to me and said,"So,you're leading combined worship next week?" I was like HUH??? Then i told her i was supposed to lead in like 3 weeks time. She checked the list on the board and confirmed that MAYJET is on next week. Not me. Haha. Freak me out only. I havent prepared anything. Havent even THOUGHT about it. Haha. Aiyo. 3 more weeks. Oh my. Eek. Have to find people and all. Never mind.

I miss KKC. Lol. The thought just came to my mind. We used to have this hiding place. Haha. Too bad the tree's gone. Haih. And also, there was this tree where ALL of us carved something there. Our buried new year's resolution is probably gone too. Ahh. The things we did. So fun. Man. I'm feeling sentimental. Haha. Sigh. I also miss TITUS!! Fun! hehe. And...(ok this is the last thing i'm gonna say i miss..haha) ASS! Gosh. Im still keeping the A.S.S. book. Sigh!

I think i better stop now before i go on and on and on about last time. I can you know. Haha.

Bitter disappointment=P

Sigh.. ok..so just ignore my title k? It's crap.
Anyway, showed Pn Ho the script(which i was working on yesterday) and yeah, we're not gonna perform. Oh well. Of cos, i feel like, wasted la. But if Pn Ho thinks it not appropriate what can we do right? so that's that then. Once again, OH WELL.

Hmm. Got two papers today. Ugh. They both suck. Haha. But if only my paper sucked, then .... but this time, everyone's paper sucked. Haih.. Never mind. It's over. No use feeling sad and all that crap. Must look on the bright side of everything. Optimistic. Haha. You maybe laughing your heads off, but yeah i'm serious. Looks like no more moody Jean for some time. Hehe. I think there's no point being moody and pathetic. So why should i?

I feel like listing out something. Hehe. Bear with me would ya?
1. Too hungry to run
2. Too tired to think
3. Too hot to move
4. Too cold to eat
5. Too happy to care
6. Too sad to look (LOL)

Hehe. Sorry just felt like doing what i just did. For your info, i DO say those phrases at times. Haha. They rock. The most often used phrase is "Too hungry to run". Haha. I use that during PJ. =) ask kim.

This is for kim.
Why do you wanna kill me?!!I put your *cough* beautiful *cough* pic in my blog didnt i?Eh. i still didnt get any pics from su. You people ar. Pakat put that dumb pic in your friendster profile la. Never mind. I am "too tired to think" what else to say.

So, i'm signing out.

Trip to Su's house.

Ahh. Finally have the time to do this. Haha. Ok. So it's in the middle of exams. Big deal. This girl needs to destress aite. Haha. No lar. Just wanted to do this while it's still fresh in my head. So, on saturday, we(kim,sim,kai,me)trashed su's house. We really MADE LOADS OF NOISE. Seriously. Haha. Hmm. The whole thing started the night before. I was deciding which of my black tshirts to wear. Finally decided to wear my fav. Haha.

Ooo yeahh...no money no honey..haha. Yeah. N blue jeans!! Man.. Seriously love this outfit. So simple. So ME. lol. *going high*
Moving on..So that morning, Kaiqi smsed me to pick her up. I was still sleeping you know. Grr. Well, i managed to get back to sleep. Hehe. Anyway, picked her up around 10.15 or 10.20..?? Reached school at 10.45. Yep. Very early huh. Supposed to go to su's house at 12. What to do. Terlampau punctual ad. Guess what we did in school? My fav! MATHS! Haha.

Hehe. That's Kaiqi. Doing geometrical constructions. She didn't want me to take this. But, aku too cekap d. =) So, we waited, and waited and waited and WAITED. For about an hour. Grr. *glares at kim* When kim FINALLY came to pick us up, it was like 11.40..? Haish.

We were then SQUASHED in the back seat of the car above. Yeah it's big, but still, 4 people all at the back. Haha. It was fun though. Pity kim's mum who had to put up with us the entire journey. Good thing she doesnt trust us. If not, we would not have reached. Haha. Ok. i won't go into the details of the journey there. We were talking, laughing, whacking each other like we usually do. So, nothing much. Haha. (can still remember shouting,"DEWAN!KEDAI!MASJID!"haha.)

We reached Su's house around 12. It was sooo umm tenteram. Until we went down. And, well. the noise began. Haha. We were all in black. So. i wonder what Su's parents were thinking.hehe. Su's parents were like,"Makan,makan." We just replied,"Uhh.. nanti dulu." Haha. We stood in front of the food for a few minutes.

I only took this section of the food cause there were people actually TAKING the food. So not nice la. Haha. Looks nice eh? Well then we went back to our seat. Ate some kuih.

Sim:How to open this thing?!! *haha*

I like this pink thing. So cute. Haha. There's some rose thingy in it. And paper. Hehe.
So, we finally took food to eat. We were like orang bodoh taking the food. Keep on asking,"What's this?How to eat ar?"Lolz. We DID finish it. I was the slowest but who cares?? Su was staring at us. Watching us eat. Scary.

(1:Kim 2:Kai 3:Sim 4:Jean)Yeah this is what our plates looked like. Empty. Hehe. The food was nice. Though CERTAIN people kept saying ETIKA MAKAN. Haih. miss school so much man. haha.

After eating, went to Su's room. Pity her la. Keep saying DON'T GO, but.. no one listened to her. Well, we discovered a few things about her. Haha.

Ok. Su has a lifesize doll. (no need to be embarassed. I have one too. Except mine is only collecting dust.hehe) The teletubby(singular. Only the green one here.)belongs to her sis. The green one's name is Dipsy by the way. Haha.

We then watched tv. And posed and posed and posed. Phew. Do you know how hard taking the perfect pic is?? XD

Ish ish. Kim and Sim. Macam rumah sendiri. Haha. (goodness they look um...)

Jean(me) and Kai. Hmph. We also can. But... we are more civillized. Hahahaha.

PHEW! Tired. Hehe.. After posing, taking picz n watching "are you afraid of the dark"(which was NOT SCARY AT ALL.)we ate somemore. This time, we had a waitress. haha.

Aww. That was so sweet of her. No lar. We each had something to take. Just so happen to take Kim's pic. Nice?? XD

I dunno WHY those people did what they did after eating.

Gosh. Notice two people missing? Haha. Me n Su were taking pic n we went somewhere else while they played. I took other pics of them playing, but 1 is enough. MORE than enough.

Su's tortoises. Hmm. Then we went home.. (Guys, i have more pics la. Just malas wanna put here. Sorry.)The journey back was also nice. Laughed a lot.

Too bad we didn't get to go to Pn. Haliza's house. There's always next year right? Haha.

Oh yeah. Just so you know, i did this thing with my geo textbook on my lap, geo workbook on the table, calculator beside me and yeah computer on(duh). Hehe. well guess that's it from me for now!

The end of one thing is the beginning of another thing

Sigh. Holidays are coming to an end. It's already Friday. In 2 more days, it'll be the beginning of the dreaded FINALS. So, i don't feel like i always feel before holidays end. I don't know why. I guess this hols have been productive. I mean, i studied. YES ME. STUDY. haha. Shocker huh?? Weelll... i still hate geo. The things we study is total crap. A whole bunch of nonsense. Whats the point? I guess we still have to study right? No choice. Oh well. I' m kinda looking forward to school. But not because of exams and all but =)

Looks like i have to force myself to study like mad this weekend. *Go Jean!* haha

Yay...! My bro's coming back.. Haha. I remember last week, when he had to sleep in my room(he slept on the floor. HAH!) i wanted to study, he wanted to sleep. What do YOO think happened? No we didnt fight. We rarely do these days. We debated. Haha. I know it's weird. But it's like a more 'mature' way to settle things.(me?him?mature?yeah right) Guess who won? Him. Grr. I got kicked out of my own room! Nahh didnt really mind. haha. being a good sis. =P

Hmm. No interesting stories today. So gonna keep this short. Can't wait for tomorrow!!
*Jean signing out*

Once upon a broken heart

Hmm.. I've been listening to "Once upon a broken heart" by the Beu Sisters. It's kinda nice. I mean look at the lyrics. Ok. So it's like all those Disney princesses songs thing. But hey, i have fantasies too you know. Haha.

"Once Upon A Broken Heart"

Once upon a broken heart
I was walking alone in the dark
Looking for a way to start again
What I wouldn't give for a friend
There was no love in my life
There was no light in my eyes
All the tears that I had cried and cried
Seemed like they'd never end

[CHORUS]
And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine

Long ago and far away
I could never dream of the day
That your love would come my way and stay
And sweep me away and I

(Chorus)

this is the way a fairytale feels
This is the way I know it's real
'Cause this is the way a broken heart heals

(Chorus)

Aww... Beautiful song. I would put the song here but, it takes too long to load. Hehe. Lazy.
Everyone has their ups and downs. Hearts do get broken. Everyone will go through it. It's not exactly something you would WANT to go through. But keep in mind that all problems will go away if only you face it.

My life, its not perfect. Not even close. When i was younger, all the people i get close to, leave. Every year. Once i get close to that person, he/she goes. leaving me here. Feeling more alone than ever. As i grow older, it happened more. The people i love, go further from me. I really want to know, is there anyone who's gonna stay with me til the end? Now, i learn to just live life to the fullest. Dont think too much about tomorrow cos you'll never know whats going to happen.

Secondary school. I expected it to be different. You know, the people would be better, they would be more understanding. Yeah right. I guess people are the same everywhere. If it wasnt for Jesus, my dear God, my best friend, I really don't know what i would have done. Because of Him, I see the better in life. There's hope out there.Somewhere. My dreams can come true. Life isnt such a depressing thing after all. Sure, i don't trust people like i used to. I mean, i've been hurt too many times. But now i see, that everything happens for a reason. Whatever the reason may be, i trust in God.

People change. Friends come and go. God is the same forever. I LOVE HIM. Call me whatever you like. I don't care. Rumours. So what? Been there, done that. Wanna hurt me socially? Turn my friends against me? Please. How old are you? Like i said, BEEN THERE DONE THAT. I went through all those already. I'm fine. Great in fact. Why pretend? Why be someone i hate? I'm fooling no one but myself. If anyone has anything against me, just let me know. I won't kill you or whatever. Haha.

So, uhhh listen to the song when you can. It's nice. haha.

Rats

Man. I can't believe that my life's been seriously boring. Ya know, the most exciting thing that has happened to me lately was well RATS. Haha. There was one in my house. Though it was caught last night. Good thing the rat didnt destroy my darling piano. haha. Love playing it. NOT PRACTICE. THAT sucks.

So. Rats. I'm trying to destress so i' m gonna crap a lil about RATS. The whole thing started when my relative(dunno how we are related. hehe) saw a rat and started umm screaming. It was early in the morning(ok so maybe not EARLY. But i was still sleeping) grr. Then no one bothered. Haha. That poor thing. Then, at night, my aunt's boyfriend was talking to my grandpa, when suddenly, *crash* *bang* (uhh thats the sound of the chairs haha) the rat ran behind my beloved piano. So i started to play(wanted to chase it out or something.) But NO RAT. Sad case. When my grandma came back from playing mahjong, my aunts, my mum, grandma,grandpa and everyone, started thinking and talking about where the rat came from.

Here are a few of what they 'discussed' :
a) Toilet bowl(eww.. my grandma was like,"From the place all our 'dump' come from."Lolz. und?)
b) The back of the house(Ya know,back lane and stuff,since there's rubbish and stuff thrown there...)
c) Pipes (Grandpa. D rat is capablee of fitting through the hole, or something)
d) My room(haha. My mum. She said that cos my room is very messy. Don't have the time to clean it. But it's an organized mess. haha. Anyway, my room's like in the middle of the house so it's quite impossible.)

So, that was what we discussed. The verdict?Toilet bowl. My grandma's very good at convincing others. haha.
Anyway, at night, we(me n my mum)went to the kitchen. Suddenly she SCREAMED. and i mean SCREAMED! Who knew my mum had such a high voice?Haha. so we just put the mouse trap in the kitchen and closed the door. Next morning(today) my mum woke me up to tell me,"The rat's been caught." I was very sleepy so i just said,"Uhh.."and weent back to sleep.

Now, the question is how to get rid of the rat? The rat's still in the kitchen by the way.
Hmm. Don't wanna kill the rat. Thought of letting it go near the river(dirty sungai Perak). But it's far from my house. My mum even suggested rearing it. Haha. I guess the whole incident really made us all a lil crazy. Oh well.

Holidays

Ok. The raya holidays just started. And already i wish it didnt even start. My house dosent feel like mine. With so many people here. I cant do what i want. I want to escape this place. But where can i go?Who can i go to?

Cut the crap. An 'accident' happened in my room yesterday. Haha. My cousins were playing with my lifesize doll. Throwing it everywhere. Messing up my stuff. Grr. i was in another room. On the computer. Hehe. Im really turning into an addict. Anyway back to the story. My grandma was shouting from another room to ask them to stop. My younger cousin,i can understand if he doesnt listen. Heck, he's only 6! But the older one playing with him(destroying my room n stuff) was MY AGE. Gosh! Well, then i(my WHOLE family actually)heard a loud crash. It was the sound of GLASS. I was thinking,"Oh shooot!!What did they break??!!!" You know what, they broke my photo frame. In the frame, was a picture thats so precious to me. Haha. And yeah, my younger cousin's head was bleeding. Cos the glass hit him. He was crying.(duh) Haihh... had to take out the picture. Now the place where i used to put the frame looks so bare. What to do. And i also had to clean my room up. Grr..

Anyway, I would have to put up with all this til tomorrow!! About i dunno, 30 more hours? Sad la wei. Never mind! I have the WHOLE week to look forward to. Can do whatever i like in PEACE. Oh man. I have to study. Sad! Hmm. At least i have next saturday to look forward to! Trashing su's house would be fun. I mean meeting up with all my peeps! Ahah. Then we'll be going to Pn. Haliza's house. cool!!

Klar. I'll blog more next time. like this isnt long enough. haha.
Outta here.