So. In about 15 hours, i'll be sitting in that hall, staring at my exam paper and try to remember all i've studied. 3 hours later, it'll all be over. All my hardwork and sweat will be hopefully worth it. I wish the day would never come. But that would only be wistful thinking. I can't wait for all this misery to end. If only the world was fair. If only it was just. Then all would be well. I would actually feel OKAY about all this misery. Geez. Who am i kidding? since when is it ever fair?

I told my mum that i would probably finish my paper tomorrow in about 2hours. Then told her that i would bring a book to study[LOL] while waiting for them to come pick me up. [the paper's 3hours]And, i got scolded for that. Haha. She told me NOT to do that. She even asked me NOT to study anymore music today. Well, she told me to relax today and not study at all. =D

Yeah yeah. I've been stressing about my THEORY EXAM. Ask anyone. Hehe. They would be holding a sejarah textbook, i would be holding my notes. And when they ask each other questions, i would just confuse them by answering stupidly. HAHA.

Ahh. I've got another reason to stress. We can ALL stress together. Mid year is on monday people! BM2 and Math2! We have 23chapters of Sejarah, 37chapters of Geography and 21chapters of Science. So, we have 81 CHAPTERS to study. And i haven't included KH, literature, sastera, maths, the 23[erm not sure how many la.til bidang 4 lar.]moral definisis...... sivik, PJK, seni[only the 'rajin' will study those] Hehe. Am i freaking you out?*grins*HAHA. It's a lot. And we don't have much time left *tick tock tick tock*

LOL. Alright. I'm out.

Sigh. Yeah yeah. I'm supposed to NOT online. But i can't take it anymore!!!

It's NOT NOT NOT easy staring at my freaking notes and trying to remember all the differents ranges, the different transposing and nontransposing instruments AND how to transpose and all that crap. ARGHHHH. Theory exam's in less than 48 hours. SIGH. How la how la how la. If that paper was FREE OF CHARGE, i wouldn't be like this. I would just give it my best shot. But, knowing that my parents paid a HUGE amount for a piece of paper..... It's a horrible feeling. They did not pay that much for me to just throw my pencil down and CRY during the exam right??

Whats worse. Mid year's next monday. How 'awesome'. I'm far from ready. At this point, i'll be surprise if i PASS. okay i'm exaggerating. STILL. Time to get serious with studies. Which is more important? Music or school? If i concentrate too much on theory, i may neglect my studies and well, have not enough time to complete everything.

Why do they have to put geo and sejarah on the same day?!!! Crazy ar?! *takes deeeeeep breath* I need to get my mind off all of this. I need to..... chill. Relax. ARGH. How can i?!!!!

I want a new obsession. I kinda found a 'candidate' for my new obsession[not exactly new...]see how la. I feel like giving up on geo. I REAAAALLY want to. The fact that i don't have the time, and that i really don't like it makes me wanna ......... Hmmm. I can't, can i?

Someone help me!!

The things i wanna do now:
1. Go for a walk.
2. Spend time with people i haven't been spending time with.=P
3. Shop for MYSELF.
4. Laugh out loud.
5. Go crazy over a certain obsession.
6. Eat.

The things i HAVE to do:
1. Study for midyear
2. Study for theory exam[which is in LESS THAN WEEK. *freaks out*]
3. Finish up my seni folio
4. Ignore all i WANT to do....
5. Cut my fingernails. LOL.

So, what SHOULD i do?
Do all i have to do.......sighhh

RANDOM PICS.[real random] [edited]

Ermmm. Don't ask. Kim's and my table. I think that's peiqi or nyit's hand up there. Haha.

I got BOO-ed and kicked out of the playing area for taking this pic. =.=

All busy at work......

LCM[Chumei]: Blah blah blah......

Peiqi: Boss tired? *starts massaging*

Meiping: HAHA!! I got the balllll!!

Meityng: HAIYOH.

Me: Alright people. Act busy. I wanna take pic for the report.

Tisha: Can can!! No problem!!!

3Hornbill's definition of cleaning up. F-U-N!! HAHA.

The clean padang. Oh, and JeeCheng. Our 'fearless' AJK kebersihan. xD

Haha. Nice pics huh? LOL. That was our sivik project. Oh!! We got the PAMERAN PALING POPULAR prize. Go HORNBILL!! Haha.

Yay! I finished the darn geo folio ad. Well, til where we're supposed to finish la. GOOD. Now can concentrate on other stuff. Oh yeah, still have some sivik homework to do. Hmm.

Gotta S-T-O-P.

Right now, i kinda hate myself. Haha. Why? Two reasons. One. I always think nonsense. And, last week and this week[today]the 'nonsense' came true. ARGH! It's not as drastic as what i thought, but still. It happened. Aku benci. Hmm. Probably no one understands what i'm trying to say. Oh well. Number two. HAH. I said something i shouldnt have today. ARGHHHHH! Kim knows what i'm talking about. Haishhh. Feeling bad bad bad. So tell me? How not to hate? I'm angry. More at myself than anyone else. Too bad for me.

I wish i could say sorry. But everybody would just tell me it's not my fault. So. Haih.

I'm sorry I'm bad,
I'm sorry I'm blue,
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know
I can't take it back.....

I'm out.