The good, the bad and all those in between

Ahhh. So many has happened in the past few days. So i think this should be a long post. Lets start.

Friday. Haha. Woke up at 7am to go to school. Didn't know what we were gonna do. Expected more people, but there were only like 7 people per form. All prefects la. Had fun seeing everyone again. I went back early. HAHA. Sorry la guys. Later, my bro and i went to run some errands. And then we picked my mum up from her school. Then went for lunch. Ate at stadium. Sent my mum home. Went to jusco with my bro. Forced him to watch ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS with me. I paid for him. No one teman me mar. LOL. Our movie was at 3.20, we were at jusco by 1.15. Had over two hours before the movie. Walked around la. Met daniel(kutuk him for wearing slippers and shorts to Jusco. HAHA.) So walked with him. Lepak around, met people and all. Haha. The movie was NIIICE. goshhh! The chipmunks soooo cute!!! XD After movie, thought would go home. My bro got a call from Joash. He was in coffeebean. We went and met up with him. Jian Ai was there too. So the four of us started talking. Then some people came and joined us. Then left, and other people came. Haha. Funny la. Eventhough they are like waaaay older than me, i can still talk to them. Nice people. Talked til very late. About 6.25 we had to leave cos my mum wanted us to buy some eggs and bananas for her. Haha. What a great day right? WRONG. That night was the worst night of my life. I dunno la. Things happened. And i felt like bursting out into tears the whole night cos of the things that were being said and done. But i didn't. I was listening to my radio. And i turn off my lights. Wanna sleep ad. That time it was still early. Only 10plus. Slowly, tears started rolling down. I was feeling so terribly lonely and useless. I stopped myself from crying. I stared at the ceiling. My head was filled with many many thoughts. Couldnt sleep. When everyone slept ad, i was still wide awake. My nose suddenly got blocked. I walked around my room hoping to clear my nose. Then i walked to the living room. It was VERY DARK at that time. And i was sniffing like mad. Sat on the couch and hugged a pillow. Then tears started rolling down again. This time i couldnt stop myself. I kept crying and crying. I went back to my room and cried my heart out. I managed to sleep very late. I was so miserable. No idea why. Ok there is a reason. But.....

The next day. Saturday. I had a dental appointment in the morning. Woke up early again. Not enough sleep. Two nights in a row. Had eyebags. Ughhh. After dental appointment, my family and i went to KL. Had to send my bro back. I slept in the car. Too tired. When we reached, we went to INTI,Subang. To take my bro's results and enrol for the following semester. His final semester for foundation. His results were once again amazing. He got 4As and 1B+. He was jumping for joy. After paying for everything, my bro sent my parents to makan. He wanted to meet up with friends and watch the orientation video by the CF cos he was in it. Lol. Didnt wanna bring my parents cos he said very weird bringing them. It was ok bringing me wor. Haha. Intro me to his friends. There was this girl i think is his lecturer, intro ad, then she was like,"Oh your sis ar. New student?" HAHA. Then my bro said,"No lar. She this year form 2 only la." All his friends and that lecturer was like,"HUHHH?!!" Gosh. Insulting. Do i look that old?!!! Haih. Then another lecturer guessed that i was 17. cis. After that, we went for lunch in Sunway Pyramid. Ate in some burger shop. GOSH! The burgers were HUGE. Serious. But i managed to finish the whole burger. The other 3 of my family, shared two burgers. Haha. And i still finished earlier than them. (My dad said,"Eat so much dunno where all the food goes.")Goodness. Then walked around Sunway la. Stopped at so many shops. Then so happen that time Giordano had this 45%storewide sale. Sooo crowded. My bro told me,"Let's go buat kecoh." Haha. Yeah only my bro and i would do such things. Looked around. Found one nice tshirt. Got size. Duh. Haha. So i lined up to pay la. Long line man. Then there was this guy standing behind me. He kept coming closer and closer. Grrr. At first, never mind la. Then after a while i got so annoyed cos he was sooo close ad. So i stepped on his foot. HAHAHA. Then he backed off. BUT. After a while, he came close again. Too close. Then i elbowed him. Then he left the line. HAHA. Good! Later when i told my family, they laughed and laughed and my mum said,"Good. Serves him right!" My bro pulak,"Aiyo that guy so desperate?? You also he want?!" Ish. My dad,"Next time scold him also la." Haha. Go Jean! So shopped til dinner time. Went to my bro's place for dinner. Then went home. =( Oh! Bought Dunkin' Donuts on the way back. Yuuummm.

NEW RULE=>When in the car, seating at the back, wear safety belt. Haish. But when traveling only la i guess. Hahaha.

Whoooaa. Long le. Hehe. Today. Went for 2nd service. Cos once in a while, i would go for lunch with my parents instead of going with friends all the time. Biasa ad. Had lunch with many other adults. Haih. Ate 'tau fu fa' after lunch. My mum bought 'ting ting tong' for me. Never heard of it before. It's not bad le. She said she used to eat it when she was younger. Hmmm. The whole thing is sugar la. Haha.

Aihhh. 2007 is coming to an end. Sad la. Good thing i'm not broke. =D Got a lot of $$ now. HAHA. I didnt spend mar. Alright enough for now.

Who's hard-hearted now?

No. I'm not trying to be mean with my title. Haha. It's more like THE TRUTH. Hehe.

I used to be called HARD HEARTED by the closest person to me then(now also i guess)Miss Chuah Yen Fong. Why? Because when we watch sad movies together, she'll be crying and i'll be the one handing out tissues to everyone.=D And weeell, sometimes i say things too loudly. HAHA. My fault. I get EXCITED!! Haha.

But now, i'm NOT that hard hearted anymore. In fact, i think i'm getting SOFT. You know what i mean. I feel bad for people very easily. I see them all alone i pity them and go talk to them. And i do it sincerely ok. VERY SINCERELY. lol. But fong has been shall we say, not-liking this guy very much. Just to let you all know, when she doesnt like someone, she goes EXTREME. Don't ask me what i mean. Ok so as usual i feel sorry for the guy. And yes, the guy is annoying at times. But he's soooo lonely!!!! Haihh. What to do what to do. I DO feel like smacking him at times. Doing the right thing is SO hard. Don't get the problem huh? Never mind.

So, who's hard hearted now?

Cuuuttteeee!!

OMG!! My family's sooo cute! Haha. ok. On saturday, i went to Kedah for dinner. So the next day, after breakfast, we(my mum,dad,bro and i)went over to my aunts' place. Well, they're non-christians. But i saw a christmas tree there with loads of presents(real ones mind you)under the tree. So i went,"OHHHHH!! NIIIICEEE!" haha. My aunt proudly told my mum and i that she did it.*ceh wahhh* So here's the part that makes my family CUTE! They have this tradition(which i've never heard them doing cos we never go down before christmas hehe)that every 24th and 25th december(christmas and its eve)they each have a christian name. HAHAHAHA. My grandma's 'JENNY'. My grandad's 'JAMES'. My aunts, 'CINDY','KAREN',and 'SHERENE'. HAHAHA. cuteee! Plus got others la. Cant remember my uncle's name. And my other cousins. HAHA. FUNNY MAAAAN. They are chinese ed btw. They watch too much tv. Haha. SOOO CUTE!!! lol.

Went to Jusco today. I think i only went to eat lunch. Cos my bro and mum were the ones shopping. Not me. Everytime i stop to look at something, they'll be like,"Let's go." Sheesh. And when i saw some tshirt i liked, my mum told me this,"When was the last time you bought clothes? You have so much already!" Excuse me? The last time i bought clothes was a long long time ago. I always wear the same old clothes. But do they care? NO. I ended up keeping quiet most of the time. What's the point saying anything? When i do, i end up arguing with my mum and she always calls me rude for saying what i think. Has she ever thought how i feel when she says certain things? I dont think so. Im sorry i cant be perfect. The entire time i was in jusco, i just wanted to go HOME.

I think i'll be going for a movie with my bro tomorrow night. We'll see what happens. Not sure what movie. Depends on what's showing i guess.

Know what i like to look at when i go to shoe shops? After looking at the shoes for myself and all. Haha. I like the baby shoes!!! OMG. So cute. But the tiny shoes at nike,adidas and all the branded shops are soooo expensive. And just for little kiddies. Plus those little kiddies' feet will grow very quickly. So why buy such expensive shoes? I have no idea. Yes i've seen little kiddies in those kinda shoes. Haha. And to think my shoes were never more than RM40. HAHA. I just got my first expensive pair recently fyi. Heck, it's only shoes. Haha. No big deal la.

Goooood morning

Have you ever woke up with a smile? Or a frown? Yes? No?
Well i have. All the time.
But this morning. I woke up.
And i felt something i've never felt before.
What was it?
Im still wondering.

The holidays are ending. As the saying goes, "All good things must come to an end." That's too bad though. It ends when i finally get to relax. Now everything's coming back to me. School. I have no idea what to think y'know.
Help????

Aihh.

Perfect? Not

"Perfect World" by Simple Plan

I never could’ve seen this far
I never could’ve seen this coming
Seems like my world’s falling apart

Yeah

Why is everything so hard
I don’t think I can deal with the things you said
It just won’t go away

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through

Yeah

I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way
Yeah
Without you I just can’t find my way

I don’t know what I should do now
I don’t know where I should go
I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when you’re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can’t let you go


Ahhhh beautiful song. Haha. Not really 'beautiful' la. But it's still totally awesome. HAHA. So, today's christmas. GOSHH soooo many things happened. Where to start???? Oh! Last night, had carolling. It's sorta a tradition. Have been doing it since i was in KKC. Love it! Our carolling was baaaad last night. Especially at uncle peter's house. EEEEK! It was ok at heritage hotel. Hehe! Ok let's start from when i reached church. My red shirt was with fong. So i went to church in ALL BLACK. Looked like some gothic girl or something. Haha. The first thing i did in church was ask the first person i saw(nicole)where's fong? Know what? She left the shirt in the car. I was like WHAAAATTT?!!!!! So we finally asked daren who stays near church to get ready a red shirt and we'll go get it. We went to his house and guess what we found? A RED SHIRT HANGING ON THE GATE. Haha. We were laughing our ass off. So, carolling was fun. Too bad fong didnt have the christmas spirit. The ride to the SPASTIC(umm how do you spell that?)was fun. The guys were acting like normal. Fong was joining us all have fun. Haha. Syok la. Then after that not as fun ad. Cos we got split up. Aihh. Different bus. No tetap bus so just go into whichever bus that has space. Reached home super late. Almost went 'yamcha' with bro and some other of the older(lol no offense la but i mean those upper secondary and older)youths. But didn't go cos scared me mum marah. LOL. It WAS late.

The next day(today la)CHRISTMAS!!!! Have i mentioned i love christmas? Cos i do. HAHA. Church was fun. LOL. Aiya normal la. Performed for both services. Bro and dad said the singing was good. Cool!! Better than the mime worrr. HAHAHA. Didn't get many presents this year. Dont mind la. I mean i dont really care about presents. No big deal. Haha. Seriously! Weell, daren had this party. For christmas. I think the party's still going on now. Yeah he invited me. Asked me a few times. I thought and thought and THOUGHT about whether or not i should go. Then decided not to. Why? I felt bad going out all the time. So wanted to spend christmas night with my parents. I DO go out all the time especially on special occasions. Don't believe that i missed a party(a very happening party mind you)to stay at home and eat leftovers? It's true. I had that feeling that i SHOULD stay. Dunno la. Last night also. Christmas eve. Didn't spend it with family. When i reached home, mum and dad were asleep. So today, i'm a good gal at home. Haha. I'm kinda planning on going somewhere for new years'. Hehe. What? My bro said that he only started going out as often as me now when he finished his SPM. *maluuuu me*

Ah weell. School reopening soon. Good? Bad? Dunno. Mixed feelings. Haha.
No offense to all my peeps in school but, i don't miss school. Sigh.
I'm going insane.
School's driving me crazy.
Oh correction. THINKING about school's driving me crazy.
I hope next year would be ok.
Everyone's dreading it.
Everyone as in those i actually approached la.
[yeah only one person]hehe.

You know what. Im just gonna leave this like this.
Maybe i'll continue tomorrow.
Or maybe this is the end of this topic.
You never know what the future holds.
[that's true but inappropriate for now haha]